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Small Target haul 10.27.18

Small Target haul 10.27.18

Tonight, I finally got the opportunity to visit the new Lincoln Square Target. They’re giving out coupons for $5 off a $15+ purchase, so I decided to see if I could some Ibotta deals while I was there. Pre-discount/coupon total: $28.48 Out of pocket total: […]

Sprouts haul 10.17.18

Sprouts haul 10.17.18

Disclaimer: I am a Sprouts Team Member. We receive a 15% discount and are also able to access special coupons through the mobile app. Because this is my haul, I’m including both in my total. The items I’ve purchased are bought with my own money. […]

Sprouts haul!

Sprouts haul!

First off, I’d like to just note that I recently began working at Sprouts. It’s been a little hectic and very overwhelming, but I’m finally starting to feel more comfortable in my role. Since I love doing hauls and I need to force myself to be a little more accountable for my spending, I’ve decided that I’ll continue to post them on Instagram, but give a little more detail here!

Sprouts Team Members receive a 15% discount and we are also able to access special coupons through the mobile app. Because this is a haul I did, I’m including both in my total. And, of course, the items I’ve purchased are bought with my own money. I am in no way being compensated by Sprouts for any hauls.

Pre-discount/coupon total: $72.01

Out of pocket total: $46.45

Final total: $32.26

Total savings: $39.75 (55.2%)

My out of pocket total was $46.45 including all coupons and my Work Perks (team member discount). Ibotta discounts totaled $12.80 and I used my American Express card for 3% cash back on groceries, which brings my total down to $32.26.

Rhythm Superfoods Organic Sea Salt carrot sticks: $3.49 – $.50 Ibotta rebate = $2.99

Barney Butter individual packet of crunchy almond butter: $.99 – $.99 Sprouts mobile app coupon = free

Goodbelly almond butter bar: $1.94 – $1.94 Sprouts mobile app coupon = free

BOS Rooibos iced tea: $1.79 – $1.80 Ibotta rebate = -$.01

2 bags Rhythm Superfoods kale chips: $5.98 – $2.00 Ibotta rebate = $3.98

Flow water: $1.00

Barbara’s Puffins cereal: $3.99 – $1.00 Ibotta rebate = $2.99 (also qualifies for Ibotta Non-GMO bonus)

Kind bar: $.99

Que Pasa tortilla chips: $3.99 – $1.00 Ibotta rebate = $2.99

2 bags Dang coconut chips: $7.98 – $3.99 Sprouts mobile app coupon – $2.00 Ibotta rebate = $1.99

Strawberry cream Skyr: $1.59 – $1.59 Team Member exclusive Sprouts mobile app coupon = free

Chameleon cold brew concentrate: $8.99

2 tubs Lantana sriracha carrot hummus: $9.98 – $2.00 Ibotta rebate = $7.98

2 tubs Better Bean Uncanny Refried Black Beans: $9.98 – $9.98 Sprouts mobile app coupons = free

(Note: One coupon was a Team Member exclusive Sprouts mobile app coupon. The other was “buy 2 bags Garden of Eatin chips, get Better Beans free.”)

2 bags Garden of Eatin tortilla chips: $9.58 (see note above)

In addition to the above listed rebates, I also hit the October Level 1 bonus ($.50) and the “Easy Earnings” $2 bonus, which bumped my Ibotta earnings up to $12.80 total.

I have been on a mission to overstock my pantry and freezer so I can begin to slow down on buying groceries, but to be honest, it’s been difficult. Since I’m part of a brand new, very busy store, we’ve been racking up a lot of overtime and I haven’t really had the opportunity to cook. I usually wind up snacking or making the easiest thing that can pass for a meal, which isn’t the best for my budget! Oh well, there’s always next time!

Arugula/baby kale pesto

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Clementine box Easter centerpiece

About a week or two ago, I started putting together a little Easter gift for the two little cousins who are local. I initially picked up little treat boxes from the Dollar Tree that I was going to fill with goodies. Then I got everything […]

A break through

About two weeks ago, I was able to snag a wonderful long weekend off from work. I was so burnt out (really, I still am, but I’m working on it), and I needed to have a chunk of continuous days off to just exist without having a million questions lobbed at me. I was started to rage at the most inconsequential things at work and rant angrily to my boss about them.

It was not a good look for me.

I made a list of things I wanted to accomplish that weekend (grocery shopping, stopping at Target, some craft projects), and I forced myself to remember that it was okay if I didn’t get everything completed. One of the things I got to do was put together two journals. I’d call them bullet journals, but to be honest, mine do not look anywhere near as beautiful as many of the ones I’ve seen online. In the main one, I put a habit tracker, a list of projects I wanted to complete by the end of the year, a list of accomplishments, goals, and things I want to learn in the coming months. In the smaller one, I’ve labeled that as a positive space, where I just try to keep things more upbeat.

I struggle a lot with low self-esteem and low level depression, and after having a major meltdown to my roommate (when I was incredibly fried), I started researching cognitive behavioral therapy for low self esteem. I don’t have the money for a therapist or the type of schedule that is conducive to seeing one right now, so I made a deal with myself that I’d try some of the things I saw online and take it from there. Since it’s sometimes hard for me to believe that anyone could ever like me ever ever ever, I’ve decided to actually write down when someone compliments me. (Honest compliments, not creepy or otherwise disingenuous ones.) I write them down no matter how minuscule they might seem. Same goes for accomplishments or just things that make me happy. I figured this was just some trendy new way for me to waste my time until it was no longer fashionable, at which point I’d abandon it.

And then something happened: it started to actually improve my mood and sense of self worth.

Just having spaces where I force myself to check any negativity and reminding myself that messing up doesn’t mean I am a terrible excuse for a human being is actually working. In two weeks time, I’m starting to feel the fog lift. I’m starting to feel like I can make everything happen again. I’m feeling hopeful and optimistic for the first time in a long time, and I’m not used to it anymore.

It’s pretty fucking amazing.

Apple pie bourbon

If you love bourbon and you love spiked apple cider, this is the recipe for you. Ingredients: 3 small Granny Smith apples, cored and sliced 2 sticks of cinnamon 1 tsp whole cloves 1/2 tsp whole allspice 1 vanilla bean, split (next time, I will […]

Getting your grocery budget set and organized

As I posted a little while ago, one of my 2018 goals is to start digging myself out of the financial hole I’ve created over the past few months. One of the ways I am going to do this is to create a firm grocery […]

2018 goals

I’ve been a stress/anxiety/mild depression fueled monster lately. I’m trying to dig myself out of the very deep hole I’ve put myself in. I’ve been stress eating, stress spending, blowing off a lot of responsibilities, and now it’s all coming back to kick me in the ass. I’ve been thinking about how miserable I am and what I can do to change it, and this is just a list of things that are pretty natural solutions to me. Well, no one particular item is a solution, but once they all Voltron together, I will be unstoppable.

1. Clean my house and keep it clean. Thanks to how stressful and busy my job is from Thanksgiving to Christmas, my house has turned into a complete shitshow. Like most people, I prefer to concentrate on getting my house top to bottom clean and then maintain it from there.
2. Get in control of my finances. Some things that will be changed are the following: cutting out beer for the time being (at $10-$14 a six pack, that quickly eats into my spending money every week), cutting way back on my grocery budget every week (by looking at bank and credit card statements, I estimate that I have been spending around $60 a week on groceries), using coupons/rebate apps more often (at one time, I bought nothing unless it was on sale/I had a coupon/there was an Ibotta rebate [preferably all three]), stop paying for things I’m not really using, and become more discerning about how I spend my money (I’ve accumulated a lot of stuff, especially clothing, in the past year).
3. In line with both of the above items: declutter like it’s going out of style. I’m starting to feel choked by stuff, and I hate it. My personal goal is to make at least one donation trip per month to my local thrift store. I’m also toying with listing items on both Poshmark and Etsy to help with this, as well as items #2 and #4 which is…..
4. ….to make a concrete plan to move across the country. Philly is slowly killing me every day. We’re an angry, unhappy people, probably because we’ve got high unemployment and high poverty rates here.
5. Stop stress eating and get more active. I need to find healthier ways to deal with my stress than shoveling as much as junk food as I can down my throat.
6. Find a second job (or replace my current full time job). Not only do I need way more money coming in, but I’ve stared at my resume for hours and know that I need to better develop my skillset if I want to move to Denver and not be trapped in customer service. It’s a rough career path. You often get treated like crap (either by coworkers/bosses or by customers or YES), it’s stressful, it’s low paying for a heavy workload, and even managers often wind up spending 10+ hours on their feet. I come home from work and my body is killing me. I don’t have the energy to do anything after work, and both my social and love lives have been dead for several years.
7. Embrace positivity. Ugh. I feel so corny saying this, but I do need to change my mindset. Too often, I’m a ball of complaints. I look at my Facebook account, and I see sad sack status after sad sack status. I think about my conversations at work, and realize it’s about 80% complaints or gossiping. My conversations with my roommate are typically some variation of complaints, self-loathing, or discussions about cats. I can feel it wearing on me.

When I did my own personal reflecting about 2017, I was happy that I really found some insight on some situations that had been bothering me. A breakup from 2011 had always been nagging at me, because it took me way longer to get over that ex than I thought it would. Once I really started to devote some time thinking about it and working through a lot of the things that bugged me about the relationship and how it ended, I no longer feel that punch in the gut if I’m reminded of his presence. It occurred to me that I felt really duped in the relationship and with things he told me while we were living together, and while those feelings were valid, it was well past the point of addressing them, accepting them, and moving on. I finally made my peace. It took so long because I mourned and then tried to just shove it all down (which I rationally knew would never work, but you know, I told myself I was fine). I took glee in finding out that his life was going worse than mine, which is always a good sign that I’m not over it. Now, I truly couldn’t care less about what’s going on with him. If he has a great life, good for him. If he has a crappy life, well, he’s got plenty of people to give him emotional support and advice.

I also never fully mourned and got over the demise of my friendship with my former best friend. While I do admit to occasionally worrying about him, I’ve finally accepted that I can’t do anything to help him. I know that I can’t maintain any sort of contact with him unless he gets into recovery, which includes making amends to me. I also know that he will probably never do that and I know that will be resentful and angry if he contacts me without even attempting to make things right. My choices are limited to either hold onto the anger I have had towards him due to poor decisions he made while drinking and using drugs or accept it and move on. I am forcing myself to do the latter, because I’m getting too old to waste my time and energy on the situation. Maybe things would be different if I had any interest in rekindling a friendship with him, but I know that I’ve been burned by him too many times. I would accept a sincere apology from him, but that would be it. The most emotional attachment I can have is hoping he’s doing well and nothing more.

Another really good thing that happened this year is I got the opportunity to reconnect with some old friends from LiveJournal. I don’t have much of a social life anymore, and just being able to reach out to people who I agree with on a lot of things and who reassure me when I feel like everything is in my life is garbage has meant so much to me. I used to be a wide open book with people because I figured that if people were going to gossip about me and try to use personal things against me, I’d take the power away from them and just air all my dirty laundry myself. I’ve learned the error in those ways, but now I’ve gone back to the other, totally locked down extreme. It’s nice to have people who you enjoy your outrage and macabre humor (and vice versa).

In one year, I’m hoping that I can look back on this blog post and laugh at how cautiously optimistic I was because my life is in such an amazing place. I have no delusions that I will change everything in my life in 2018, but I feel like these goals — or resolutions, if you must! — are basically a personal rube goldberg machine. I look at how intertwined they are and how, if I make minimal changes and do very little work, I can set myself up for an amazing life.

Now let’s see if I burn out on all this by February 3rd!

Merry Christmas to me?

This year has been a doozy. I feel like I’ve been saying things like that for the past four or five years. Most of the time, I honestly feel trapped. The main culprit is my job. Well, not just my specific job (as in, why […]